Blue Lizard chapter 18
Jan. 31st, 2010 02:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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Title: Blue Lizard part 18 (WIP)
Author: Morgia
Rating: Mature, Adult AU (very adult subject, sex m/m w/w m/w and torture)
Genre: AU Thriller
Summary: Everybody has secrets, sometime they wait in the shadow the good moment for taking the revenge.........
Chapter summary: Where evryone wait for the redemption
Pairings: Jack,/Ianto, team,Suzie, John Hart, OC, really different pairing, don't want to tell all the good suspence..... lol
Warnings: mature subject and bad words, mention of sex
Spoilers: no, its a AU series
Disclaimer:I don't own Torchwood or any of the characters.
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Blue Lizard
Chapter 18
The sound of the monitors playing like macabre music; He is still alive. The man stares at the blank face in front of him; He is still alive. The man sighs weakly; he is so tired. He almost lost everything: his friends, his family, his soul; He is still alive. Sometimes Jack Harkness doesn’t want to be the big damn hero no more; he doesn’t want to be the one who’s left standing when everything and everybody falls around him. He just wants to close his eyes, lie down on the ground and sleep, forever; He is still alive. He hates the darkness he always finds in men’s hearts; the sadness and the anger are the worst sluts of humanity. The man carefully watches the young man in front of him; He is still alive. A moment before, when he finally found him, Jack Harkness felt like the world around had stopped turning and had suddenly, with his faint lover’s smile, exploded into thousands of sparkles; He is still alive. Now, in this room, in the security of the Hub, Captain Jack Harkness just wants to scream: He is still alive.
“Ianto… Ianto… Ianto… Please, don’t let me down…”
The last words are drowned in a painful sob. But Jack Harkness has to be strong, for everyone, for himself, for his young lover. So he restrains the sob deep down inside his soul, clenches his fists and waits for the gorgeous Welsh blue eyes to open for him: He is still alive.
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The medic coldly stands in the autopsy bay; She is dead. With a professional hand, he prepares the woman for her last rest. A cold fist squeezes his heart and something heavy pushes against his lungs; he has difficulty breathing; She is dead. Owen Harper feels as though he is dead with her. How many times will he have to be the one who’s left behind? She is dead. The medic is tired; sometimes he just wants to close his eyes, lie down on the ground and sleep, forever; She is dead. His every move is made with precision, like a perfect robot, as the professional medic he is. There are no tears anymore; there is no pain, just the guilty sensation of being alive; She is dead. He was a fool; he thought that this time he had found someone to love, someone to care for, someone who made him believe that hope is real; She is dead. Owen Harper sighs deeply. He looks at her, caresses her face and restrains the sob that threatens to explode in his throat.
“Tosh, do you know how much I care about you?”
Silently, the woman lays there.
“The first time I saw you, I thought you were insane. Then, I stared into your eyes and I liked what I saw: a piece of a febrile joy…”
Silently, the woman lays there.
“When you are in my arms, I know what happiness is … I love everything in you: your shy smile, your ears, your feet, your eyes…. You make me feel so alive Tosh…”
Silently the woman lays there.
“Tosh… Please, forgive me… I let you down…”
Silently, the woman lays there.
“I couldn’t save you… My beautiful Toshiko…”
Silently, the woman lays there.
“Tosh… I feel lost…”
The world around doesn’t stop turning, the sun still lights the sky, and humanity continues to live; She is dead. In the Hub, the medic works professionally, the best way he knows how: coldly. He doesn’t want to feel anymore; She is dead.
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The woman runs; her breath is jerky; I am lost. She has the sensation of not being in her body anymore, like she runs alongside herself; I am lost. There is no redemption for the ones who sin; Suzie Costello knows it. She runs without looking behind, there is no need; the woman knows she’s alone; I am lost. The pain surrounds her, as though the sky and the ground press in on her; she thought she had no feeling anymore; I am lost. She just wants to scream, but her rage has been trapped inside for far too long; I am lost. Suzie Costello is a tired woman; sometimes she just wants to close her eyes, lie down on the ground and sleep, forever; I am lost. Suzie Costello knows the end will come soon; the past never forgets. But she continues to run with an insane hope that maybe someone will save her; I am lost.
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The young man stares at the wall in front him. He woke up a moment before, curled in his strong lover’s arms; Jack… Now the man is asleep beside him, but his arms embrace him in a promise to never let him down. Ianto Jones has the sensation of standing in ruins he has built himself; Jack… He has difficulty breathing; the past never forgets. He feels like he is falling deeply in the darkness; Jack… The young man holds his lover desperately; he doesn’t want to fall. He has walked far too long down this road. There is no redemption for the ones who sin; Ianto Jones knows it. He wanted so much to believe that someone could save him; Jack… He sighs deeply; he knows he will have to kill again. But for the moment, Ianto Jones let the soft breath of his lover rocks him; for the moment, he just wants to feel alive: Jack …
TBC
A short chapter, sort of transition because I want my Ianto strong for the next chapters.... Hope you enjojed this chapter :)
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Date: 2010-01-31 08:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-31 03:37 pm (UTC)I am so happy you still enjoy it !!!!
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Date: 2010-01-31 03:56 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-31 04:19 pm (UTC)Have a nice sunday :)
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Date: 2010-01-31 01:07 pm (UTC)The characters, their emotions, poor Suzie and Owen...but where are Gwen and John? *is intrigued* xD
Awesome, awesome chapter my friend!
Love it!!!
*HUGS*:D
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Date: 2010-01-31 03:40 pm (UTC)Well, well, Gwen she is around, but she didn't lost anyone, not really, so she just wait for her scenes... later....
John ???? Where is John ??? Hummm, John is now a good one?? Or maybe not... So where is John? ... Don't forget that the redemption is not so easy to get...
Thanks !!!!!!!!
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Gros bisous
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Date: 2010-01-31 02:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-31 03:42 pm (UTC)xxxxx
Thanks so much to still hang on with this story ma chérie !!!
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Date: 2010-01-31 03:35 pm (UTC)Poor...everyone in this chapter.
It's so sad how Jack believes in Ianto's redemption, and Ianto think the exact opposite, but so true!
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Date: 2010-01-31 03:43 pm (UTC)Yes, Ianto doesn't believe he can be save... But Jack is there, Jack always save the day... Right ????
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Date: 2010-01-31 03:57 pm (UTC)xxxxxx
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Date: 2010-01-31 04:20 pm (UTC)You know me very well ;p
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Date: 2010-01-31 04:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-31 04:52 pm (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2010-01-31 05:04 pm (UTC)Its so great to have comment like your about something I really love to write.
Prends soin de toi mon amie
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*gros bisous et gros câlins*
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Date: 2010-01-31 07:50 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-01-31 08:05 pm (UTC)Si les choses vont s'améliorer ??? Heuuuu, ça dépend du point de vue.....
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Date: 2010-02-02 01:34 am (UTC)Great chapter *hugs*
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Date: 2010-02-02 01:52 am (UTC)Thanks !!!!!!
Hope you had great day!!!!!