I do love Blue Lizard (against the advice of my sanity), but everything is so dark right now *sighs* I'm working on some cracky nonsense with a friend right now, makes me a bit happier. I keep telling myself its just a show, not real, but still - sad! So I tell myself the new show wasn't real for the show itself and that helps somemore. I'm sure a psychiatrist would have a field day with me lol